Good evening George, it took me time to conclude and message you. but I know it won’t be in vain. I need guidance on something. I love God, I believe in Jesus. I’m a servant of righteousness. I’m a worker in my church. I’ve always had this relationship with God right since I was little though I didn’t understand it much but I knew God early. But since I turned 20, I’ve been having this great hunger for Christ, to know him more, to truly serve and fear/ obey him, to walk with him. sometimes I feel like I’m struggling, like I’m pushing it too hard, even though I know God can never abandon me but sometimes I feel like he sat on his throne, watching me to know what I will do.
Truth is I don’t know what to do. all I know is that I thirst for this man. I’ve told God to help me. I need help. looking at my life and what have happened to me, situations where God has saved me,I’m left with no other conclusion that there’s something God wants that I’m not doing. I feel there’s a purpose God has for me. but I’m struggling to find this purpose. I want this purpose to unfold so I can serve him better. I want to know my calling. I need my thirst to be quenched, its killing me. please help me. I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing contacting you but I can’t keep this inside of me any more. God is watching me right now, I don’t know what his reaction is and I hope I’m not running from pillar to post. I feel envious when I see youths that hear from God. I want to God to help me. I need your guidance, advice and prayers too. Thanks.
From Joy, Enugu
You did the right thing contacting me. I like you for your sincerity and believe me, at 20 many youths are hungry for pleasure than hungry for God! But here you are, seeking answers because you really desire to do God’s will! Again, don’t feel you are running from pillar to post! There is no boundary in Christianity! We are one in Christ and we are encouraged to admonish and pray for one another.
The bible says in Matthew 5:6 “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.”
I started with the above portion of the scripture because it best explains God’s desire and action towards anyone who hunger and thirst for righteousness! Thirsting for righteousness means thirsting for God and God promises to fill the thirst. Perhaps, the problem is because you are pushing it too hard, or you are struggling to make it happen! Truth is, when ever we try to help God do what he already said he will do, we are limiting him from doing it! God wants to do it alone because he wants to take all the credit… Not because he is selfish but because he is perfect in all his ways, he wants it done perfectly and we cannot do it on our own. Paul wrote cin 2 Corinthians 12:9
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on you”
God doesn’t want you to do it yourself, he wants to do it with you! God is not just on the throne watching you and doing nothing, God is also desiring to use you greatly! It is God’s desire for you that is reaching you and making you desire him too but you shouldn’t try doing it… Just allow him to do it with you!
And you thought there is something God wants that you are not doing! Well, you may be right… God wants you to trust him, to believe and cling to him and to allow him to do it himself! Believe me, nothing is wrong with you, its just that you have been trying to do it when it is God’s duty to do it!
The place we saw in Matthew said “…for they shall be filled” and not “…for they will fill themselves”. Let me show you another bible verse
“for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose.” Philippians 2:13
It is God who does the work! You simply have to allow him and take it step by step! Just walk in the direction of your calling. What then is your calling?
I can’t say what your calling is because I am not the caller but I can tell you how to understand where you are being called. What is your desire? Where does your desire often yield to? If your hunger is to do the Lord’s work, then start doing the Lord’s work immediately and don’t wait for any special thing to happen! Just understand that it is all about Jesus!
There is a difference between working in Church, working for God and God, working in you! God wants to work in and through you! God’s purpose for your life is about him… Look at what God said
“But I have raised you up for this very purpose, that I might show you my power and that my name might be proclaimed in all the earth” (Exodus 9:16).
Job declared to the Lord “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted” (Job 42:2).
People have plans but it is God’s purpose that last! Fulfilling purpose doesn’t mean being rich or famous… It means fulfilling the reason why God has designed you!
“Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails” (Proverbs 19:21).
God is working his purpose out and he is doing so in your life! It is time to free your mind… Keep the hunger afresh, keep desiring to do his will but never ever try doing them on your own! God’s purpose is about himself!
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28).
You see that? It is his purpose and he will see it to the finish! what do you do?
Don’t feel God is just watching you, don’t feel you have been abandoned and don’t feel there is something wrong with you! You’re absolutely fine…
Finally, associate yourself with people who are fulfilling purpose! When you are with people of like minds, you are being trained not just through them but through their experiences and you are also challenged to keep forging ahead… The Christian walk, is a walk with God! Keep the faith alive… And let’s keep in touch!
God bless you!